Portia’s Island

     This Sunday, something really wonderful happened when I opened my Inbox folder. A letter that started with "I am happy to advise you that your application grant has been approved" was waiting for me. For about 10 milliseconds, I felt like on top of the world… people who have won the lottery or reached the peak ok a mountain would know how I felt.  The world stopped turning for a brief moment as I screamed by lungs out, running out of the room towards my husband who was in the yard, doing his usual bonsai things.  Oh my God! Thank you soooo much! It took me a while to explain to him what the good news was exactly, because i was crying and laughing at the same time, but he got it immediately. This was what we have been waiting for.

     I had to read the letter again just to make sure I wasn’t imagining it, and it was really there.  But it was only when I printed it out and held it in my hand did I really really truly believe that I really got the grant. The universe’s answer to my prayer.  I guess the guy up there wants me to become a marine biologist after all, and not jus a dakilang domestic goddess. 

     After a few moments, it dawned on me that getting the grant was a big responsibility. There are things to be done, people to meet, a deadline to meet, a project to finish. And there is my thesis also (that I can now really finish, because there is now money for me to do the work), and it would mean a lot of work for the next 12 months. 

     But everything will work out fine, because I have the support of my family. Getting the grant was a big blessing, and I am really grateful– but I never forget also that the biggest blessing I have been given is my little guy with the biggest round eyes. And my family, who have supported me through thick and thin, through all my successess and fuck-ups. 

     With His blessings, everything will turn out OK. And if I work my ass off for it, hoepfully, by 2008, I will finally be able to wear the toga and the funny hat (as my hubby calls it) and go up the stage and receive my degree on Graduation Day. It’s still a long way off, and it will be a hard, tough climb, but we will get there eventually. Selinog Island, here we come!

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